Till we part again

Down somewhere in his heart he was afraid,
would he see her face again,
down somewhere in her heart she was assured,
no matter what he will come back,
he held her hand tight yet comforting,
she held his arm loosely yet restraining,
tomorrow he won't be here,
he had to go to the seas,
smattered by future of his,
will his existence be supersede,
she kissed his cheek for reassurance,
smile on her face was small yet exuberant,
drowned in his uncertainty he hugged her tight,
then looked into her eyes and said,
i would love you forever,
till we part again.

o he was a sailor,
born to explore,
but his biggest exploration was this girl,
when its her to him nothing else could lure,
now he stood on the bow of his ship,
the smooth wind felt like a whip,
she stood on the shore with her gown fluttering,
her lips with dull smile and her eyes watering,
her hand held just above her shoulder,
weakened by the sorrow of his departure,
throat full of emotion felt like smothered,
he can't see her cry and would jump anytime to come to her,
but she refused by waving her head,
because she knew this sea was his world,
He waved her farewell,
as the ship started its sail,
in these moment of separation,
she shouted to tell him how she feels,
"I will wait for you like for always,
and when you come back i want your surname,
and i would love you forever,
till we part again."

He smiled and swept his tears of joy,
her heart was with him,
and with her was his life,
no matters the distance between them,
she was with him,
no matter the time he takes to return,
he would find his way back to her,
he promised her and threw her a kiss,
with love in the air and heart full of bliss,
he would love her forever,
and won't ever part again.

Again you were not there

vexed i am,

perplexed i am,

grinding my head are my thoughts,

my emotions are making me abhor,

filled is my chest with something i dont know,

i have some emotions which i cant show,

something in my mind is very unclear,

Again i needed u and,

again you were not there,

Why were u not there?

i gave you signals,

but you were too busy,

i tried to contact you again and again,

till due to desperation i got dizzy,

i felt helpless,

almost hopeless,

i wanted to hold whatever was within me,

but i was getting breathless,

holding my head i sat,

in my self containing sphere,

Again i needed you and,

again you were not there,

why were you not there?

i know you are not stupid,

not stupid enough to not know,

that something is wrong in my way of talking,

and without your attention it will grow,

but you ignored,

what you want now i am not sure,

what i want i know you won't know,

or might be you would not care,

your life is more important to you,

without saying i have seen this declared,

you know, again i needed you and,

again you were not there,

why were you not there?

listening to the silence

 while walking on the road alone, blank minded and nothing to do,  my eyes stuck on a board. it was a board of elderly's home. don't know why but i automatically turned and went inside that place. 

an uneasy silence was all over that place. dead silence. several old people sitting together but still not talking to each other. two care takers , foul mood and mouthed. like a bad teacher , they were continuously scolding one or other elderly and those unhappy faces following the orders given by their caretakers. 

i stood there, looking at those unhappy faces, trying to feel their pain. the pain which was due to wound on their souls. trying to listen the language of silence in which those old wrinkled faces were talking. but all i could hear was Oh! what is this life and why are we alive? 

suddenly one old woman, around 70 years old came to me and asked, " why are you standing here son? anything needed?" i won't say that she was polite to me, but looking at her made me feel urge to know how does she feel to be in this place.

i shrugged and replied," nothing grandma, just wandering around." 
"ohhh! i thought someone of us got lucky to have their grandson visiting them." the old woman said. i could easily see the sorrow pouring down in her eyes.  before i would have said anything, she moved slowly away from me. and looking at her, i got my answer, how she felt being in that place.

i again stood there on a corner of that place watching all those old people , all of them would be of the age of my grand parents. all were old , wrinkled , tired of their lives, sad and wondering why were they there. after giving around twenty years of their lives to their children, what probably could have they done wrong to pass their last days in this place. 
.
two sad people can never make a place happy. 
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everyone of them wishing, one day their son or daughter would come and take them away from this gloomy place. but all hopes were dead in those dull eyes. i wondered if even tears would ever come down those eyes. atleast mine had not dried. i could feel the loneliness, they were in. lonely from inside. 
biggest sorrows of their would be , being parents , they couldn't even say to those unthankful beings, who have left them in that place that ," like i am , you would be!" 

after a while, i left that place. heavy hearted. i could feel my lungs not accepting enough air needed for my body. i guess i was filled with the sorrow and agony of that place. 
and in the end i was left with same question like all those old people , WHY?

kaale badal baras gaye, 
ab safed ye asmaan hai,
in budhi haddiyo ke abhi bhi kuch arman hai.

nanhi si ungli thaam ke jisko chalna tha sikhaya,
ab sahara dene me uss ladle ki ghatti shaan hai.
jaan to nikal jaati  is bejan shareer se,
par kya karu ,
in budhi haddiyo ke abhi bhi kuch armaan hai.