Again you were not there

vexed i am,

perplexed i am,

grinding my head are my thoughts,

my emotions are making me abhor,

filled is my chest with something i dont know,

i have some emotions which i cant show,

something in my mind is very unclear,

Again i needed u and,

again you were not there,

Why were u not there?

i gave you signals,

but you were too busy,

i tried to contact you again and again,

till due to desperation i got dizzy,

i felt helpless,

almost hopeless,

i wanted to hold whatever was within me,

but i was getting breathless,

holding my head i sat,

in my self containing sphere,

Again i needed you and,

again you were not there,

why were you not there?

i know you are not stupid,

not stupid enough to not know,

that something is wrong in my way of talking,

and without your attention it will grow,

but you ignored,

what you want now i am not sure,

what i want i know you won't know,

or might be you would not care,

your life is more important to you,

without saying i have seen this declared,

you know, again i needed you and,

again you were not there,

why were you not there?